Here I go again. Restless. Helpless.
A walking contradiction of myself.
Calm and composed on the outside, freaking out like hell inside–but only for the time being. A fraction of a second later I’d be all hyped-up as if I could bring the world down with one hand, while in fact deep down inside, I’d be holding everything together with faith not any stronger than a piece of clear adhesive tape.
Sometimes, I feel that in the midst of my struggle not to be against the binding norms of everyday existence, I just have to be on the opposite side of the battle I’m trying to win.
How ironic. It’s like for me to live this life the way everybody else does, I have to gather my strength in being different.
What destroys me, nourishes me.
I guess I would always be the other way around of things.
And I’d always be the one of a kind that comes in twos.
I enjoy reading your blog. keep on doing it.
(nope, i’m not one of your ex’s. just another fan of yours.)
your i.p. address shows you’re from Sorsogon. Nice.
Thank you.
you’re welcome! no, I’m not from there.